


It's Easier to Run

by Red Rose Touga



Category: Utena
Genre: Poetry, Romance
Language: English
Status: In-Progress
Published: 2004-04-16
Updated: 2004-04-16
Packaged: 2013-07-05 22:27:05
Rating: K
Chapters: 1
Words: 474
Publisher: www.fanfiction.net
Story URL: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1822374/1/
Author URL: http://www.fanfiction.net/u/472986/Red-Rose-Touga
Summary: In the past, Saionji found that it was easier to run from Wakaba, but how could he stop from falling in love?...He can't.. SaionjiWakaba thanks for the idea Oneesan no Miroku Houshi! Hope you all R





	It's Easier to Run

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It's Easier To Run

By Anna

  
PS. Before any of you say Saionji is OOC, please note that whenever he's  
thinking or wants to avoid Wakaba.  
  
~*~  
  
_Watching dying embers  
I remember my dark past  
Shifting through the memories  
I wish I didn't have  
  
My heart is black and shattered  
Worse then the firewood  
If only I could turn back time  
And change the past- I would  
  
I'd have never ever fallen in love  
If women passed I'd look away  
I'd have stayed home with my mom  
Been with her on her dying day  
  
But at least my past has taught me  
Taught me not to love again  
To try and quell my feelings  
And remain with *her* just friends.  
  
I've learned not to let another in  
So as to avoid more misconceptions  
That loving should be made a sin  
And not even for *her* will I make an exception  
  
I've learned to keep my secrets  
And I've learned to keep my silence  
I've learned to mask loving emotions  
And cover them with violence  
  
But of all the things that I have learned,  
This lesson is number one:  
When pain becomes enormous-  
It's easier to run  
  
Yes, I've learned it's easier to run  
That it's easier to go  
To calm the hurt with numb feelings  
To face the pain alone  
  
*She* knows all my secrets,  
both the hidden and shown  
She cares so much more for me  
Then anyone I have ever known  
  
No- I refuse to fall again  
I mask my love, cover with 'hate'  
For if I don't stop caring for her-  
It may become too late  
  
Because it's easier to run  
Yes, it's easier to go  
To calm the hurt with numb feelings  
To face the pain alone  
  
*She* smiles at me and reassures  
*Her* loving touch drives me insane  
*She* showers me with kind hearted words  
I will not fall! Not again!  
  
I cannot let another in!  
Loving *her* would be a sin!  
I must not let emotions win!  
I must turn and run!  
  
For it's easier to run  
Yes, it's easier to go  
To calm the hurt with numb feelings  
To face the pain alone  
  
But as *she* takes my soft hand  
I know all the battles I've been in  
Are as insignificant as sand-  
Because this is one I know I won't win.  
  
I should not let another in  
Loving her must be a sin!  
Yet I know my heart will eventually win  
  
But for now. . .  
  
It's easier to run.  
_  
~*~  
  
  
**(In case you haven't figured it out, *her* and *she* is Wakaba. ^_~) **


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